Surveying the Damage

I work with guys who’ve messed up their marriages then, by God’s grace, roll up their sleeves and commit to restoring what they’ve wounded.Surveying the Damage

That’s hard work, and surveying the damage which has been done can be the worst part of it. As a guy whose done plenty of damage himself, I appreciate how grueling that can be,

I’d much rather just say “I’m sorry” and move on, rather than take a hard look at the consequence of my decisions.  But it’s unreasonable to say “I’m sorry I hurt you but I’m not about to look at the ways I’ve hurt you.” That’s really just another way of saying, “I don’t want to face what I did.” And of course, whatever we refuse to face, we refuse to deal with, making us all the more likely to repeat it.

It’s a good thing Nehemiah  didn’t have that problem . When he set out to rebuild Jerusalem, he began by taking a close look at the damage done to her walls. (Nehemiah 2: 11-16) It couldn’t have been easy. Knowing the walls were decayed was one thing; closely inspecting them to see just how decayed was another. But how else could he rebuild? To make things right, he had to first see how wrong they really were.

If you’re a husband who has sexually sinned against his wife, you could do a lot worse than to follow his lead. Because your sin was never just about you – someone else was damaged, sometimes in ways that are pretty horrible to consider. But you can’t move on until you have considered them, assessing them just like Nehemiah assessed the walls: up close and personal. That’s how
rebuilding begins.

The Restitution She Deserves

To make restitution, you need to restore what you took from another person or, in some cases, what you caused another person to lose. So if your wife discovered your sin, you’ve caused her to lose something. A few “somethings,” in fact, and looking at these losses is a painful but necessary part of rebuilding a
damaged bond.

A few losses she may have experienced:

•She may have lost her assumptions about you.
•She may have lost confidence in her attractiveness.
•She may have lost confidence in her intelligence
•She may have even lost confidence in God.

One of the saddest remarks I’ve ever heard in my office came from a wife who found out her husband was in an adulterous relationship.

“If my Daddy knew that the man who wanted to marry me would hurt me someday”, she said through her tears, “he’d have shot that guy before he’d let him marry me! But my Heavenly Father, who knows everything, allowed me to marry a man who wound up shattering my heart! Why would God give me to this man, when He knew this man would crush me? I guess I don’t even matter to God anymore.”

If you broke your wife’s heart, there’s a good chance she remembered that God gave her to you. And she wondered, as any child would, why her Daddy handed her over to someone so hurtful. That means there’s some serious rebuilding to be done, and you can begin it now with three simple actions: Acknowledge, Listen, and Clarify.

Acknowledge

Tell her you acknowledge the nature of your sin. It’s not enough to say “I committed adultery”, or “I used pornography.” That just a partial confession, because it acknowledges the action, but not the nature of the action.

Tell her you acknowledge the consequences of your behavior. Make sure she knows you’re aware of the impact your sin had. Acknowledge to her that you’ve shattered her trust, and that she may be unable to believe anything you say for some time. Acknowledge how difficult it must be for her to be civil to you, and how crushing it must be to wonder if she’ll ever feel safe with you again.

Finally, acknowledge your limited ability to understand the pain you’ve caused. Tell her that you can’t fully understand the hurt because (and this is vital) you did it to her; she didn’t do it to you.

Listen

Then tell her you want to know what she’s going through, and that you’d like to understand it better. Promise that you’ll simply listen, without interrupting or defending yourself, as she tells you what it was like learning about your sin – the shock, the fear, the disbelief – and what it’s like dealing with the aftermath of it. Listen carefully while she tells you this, and make sure she knows you’re listening.

Then never, never forget what you heard. And see to it that you’ll never have to hear it again.

Clarify

But don’t stop there. Clarify your intention and recovery plan. Because, after all, what good are tears if they’re not followed by action?

Because trust is only rebuilt through a combination of time and consistency. She can decide to forgive you, certainly, but no one can decide to trust. If someone’s betrayed you, you stop trusting him. And once that happens, you can’t turn the trust back on. It can only grow when the person who broke your trust shows consistency over a period of time.

So maybe you have your work cut out for you. Patiently and consistently follow your plan to rebuild with a servant’s heart and an eye towards restoring peace in your home, and in due time, you’ll reap the rewards. When doing so, here’s a sample of what I find husband’s need to say and, more to the point, what wives need to hear:

I know what I’ve done, and I’ve done more than commit a sexual sin. I’ve betrayed you by breaking a sacred promise I made before you and God. That betrayal must have shattered you, and you’ve got every reason to be enraged, heartbroken and suspicious. I made you that way.

I’ve also deceived you. I lied to you with words, and even when I wasn’t lying with my words, I lied with actions. I know that now, as a result, you don’t trust me. You probably don’t even feel you know me, and I don’t blame you. But I’m determined to make you feel, once again, that you really do know who and what am.

I won’t presume to say I know what you’re going through. I know you’re hurt, furious, bewildered and scared, but I don’t really know what all of that feels like, because this is a pain I put on you. You didn’t put it on me. But please help me. Help me understand what you’re going through. Tell me what it’s like, and I promise I won’t run away or defend myself when you tell me. I’ll listen, no matter how hard it is to hear it.

But I know you need more than words. You need to know what I’m going to do about all of this. So here is the recovery plan I’ll be following. You will be able to see whether or not I’m sticking to it.  

I know my credibility is low. So for now, I’m not asking you to trust me. I’m asking you to watch me.

Sow in humility; apply yourself in patience. You’ll reap in due time.

Comments

Wayne | May 24, 2016

Joe, this is very powerful, and I know that God will use it to bless many others. I have an aged old question for you based on a counseling situation I had with a broken woman that was unfaithful to her husband.....largely due to his abuse, neglect, and even physical abuse.

She was a Christian by all accounts, and was active in her church trying to live her life to honor the Lord. Her husband, an unsaved man, didn't like her going to church or even being "religious", and he actually started making things up just to punish her, and that included even physically assaulting her.

Long story short, she doesn't have much family, and it was probably that lack of support that caused her to stray with a man whom she met at the store while shopping. Her question to me was, "Should I tell my husband about my affair?" That question really challenged me theologically. My question in return to her was, "if you told your husband about your affair, what do YOU think he would do or how would he respond?" Her pointed answer was, "I probably would not remain alive!"

So, my friend, Joe, how do you counsel people, especially women that could literally put their lives on the line if they came clean to an abusive husband or boyfriend? I know the significance of having honesty in any healthy relationship, but I can't help to wonder if it is wise to counsel a person in a similiar situation to spill their guts as it were, if that could potentially mean that they get seriously injured, or in a worst case scenario, they lose their life. Please help me with this because I'm not sure that Seminary fully prepared me for these types of situations.

Thanks!

Wayne

Joe Dallas | May 24, 2016

Wayne, if a woman is married to someone who has assaulted her, then confession would be unwise and dangerous. This is doubly true if she believes her life would be endangered by a confession. You mentioned "the significance of having honesty in any healthy relationship", but this relationship is clearly anything but healthy, so confession of past sin on her part will do more harm than good.

When a woman has been abused, I strongly believe she should report the abuse to the police the first time it happens, since it will almost certainly continue if she doesn't. Since she doesn't seem to have done that, her safety is very uncertain. So I'd recommend making sure she contacts a licensed professional therapist who can help her develop the best approach to take in her marriage, and who can get her connected with a women's shelter if need be, legal assistance, and whatever other support she may need in the future. If you don't have access to names of therapists in your area, ask your pastor for a referral.

This woman is in a very serious, dangerous situation, and the best thing you could do for her in my opinion is to make sure she has the resources she'll need to ensure her own safety.

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